11 years today you grew your precious wings . Even tho we were not ready for you to leave us . There’s so many things I need your help & advise with . Why arnt you here to help me . I sometimes hope that I will wake up from a nasty dream & you will be standing there looking at me saying stop sniffing lol . I don’t have anyone to talk to , mum doesn’t really like me . The others don’t bother , I have no one left . You were my rock to talk to & you left me 😭. Oh why is life so unfair .

been to take you some lovely gifts today, i bought you a lovely wicker reindeer with a plant in. me,mandy & niki bought a lovely black cross saying remember our dad. mum put you a xmas tree & some gifts on too. we then went to see auntie ed to take her plant & cards. then went to see grandad to take his present. we have had such a hard day today dad, i wish you were here to celebrate xmas with us, i cant bare this pain of you being gone. i have cried all afternoon. mum isnt coping very well without you, she was doing well until about 2 weeks ago, but because ur anniversary & xmas approaching she is going backwards. still doesnt feel real that only 8 weeks ago you were still here, now you have been taken. i hope you have found baby brian & ur dad. speak again soon dad. love you xx

A rose once grew where all could see. sheltered beside a garden wall, and, as the days passed swiftly by, it spread its branches, straight and tall. one day, a beam of light shone through, a crevice that had opened wide- the rose bent gently toward its warmth then passed beyond to the other side, now, you who deeply feel its loss. be comforted- the rose blooms there- its beauty even greater now, nutured by gods own loving care.