been to take you some lovely gifts today, i bought you a lovely wicker reindeer with a plant in. me,mandy & niki bought a lovely black cross saying remember our dad. mum put you a xmas tree & some gifts on too. we then went to see auntie ed to take her plant & cards. then went to see grandad to take his present. we have had such a hard day today dad, i wish you were here to celebrate xmas with us, i cant bare this pain of you being gone. i have cried all afternoon. mum isnt coping very well without you, she was doing well until about 2 weeks ago, but because ur anniversary & xmas approaching she is going backwards. still doesnt feel real that only 8 weeks ago you were still here, now you have been taken. i hope you have found baby brian & ur dad. speak again soon dad. love you xx